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Im 15 and honestly to sum it up, it's ruining my life so I really need to face it. Any tips?):

Heyy im livvi and im 15 years old and I'm currently dealing with social anxiety. I don't think I have it too bad, but for me it's pretty hard because I'm already really shy. Anyways I can't even go to school without getting nervous. Whenever certain people talk to me my face gets all red and I don't understand why ? Even when I'm talking to my parents or someone my face turns red and it makes me feel soooo bad about myself omfg, Also like at the mall I can't walk around by myself without getting nervous, and sometimes I'm even afraid to buy things because I'll have to talk to the cashier ? I'll literally put something back and not buy it just because I'll have to talk to the cashier. And when I present projects at school I get so nervous and I definitely don't answer any questions unless I'm called on, I usually don't go to parties when I'm invited to them because talking to a lot of people makes me nervous because I have no idea what to say. Ugh idk I feel crazy I just need help ?

okay, so I just got the September 2012 issue & on pg. 84 it says "boho babe" on the right side & under that section there's a red shirt with fringe & I seriously cannot find it on forever21.com. like idk wut to even search for on there to find it. will someone help because id like to have this shirt before school starts. thank you darlings.<3

okay, so I just got the September 2012 issue & on pg. 84 it says "boho babe" on the right side & under that section there's a red shirt with fringe & I seriously cannot find it on forever21.com. like idk wut to even search for on there to find it. will someone help because id like to have this shirt before school starts. thank you darlings.<3

okay so hai. um, yeah. I live in michigan he lives in ohio. they're literally right by each other, so it makes it easier to hope that we meet someday. but like, it just sucks to know that the person you love is so far away. I'm scared that he's gonna find someone else, forget about me, lose interest in me or something. he's not the kinda person that would do that, but like since I can't be with him physically I feel like he will. idk though :/ he's perfect. um, we skype all the time. we used to text but I don't have my phone anymore...ummm anyways. all I'm asking is like, is it possible to love someone this far away from you? because I honestly don't know. he's always like "once I'm famous I promise I'll find you." and all that stuff. (he wants to be a singer & he's honestly amazing at it :3) but idk if it's possible. I JUST DON'T KNOW OKAY HELP ME THANKS BAI DARLINGS XX

http://dailybooth.com/catsmakemehappyx/22894621

http://dailybooth.com/catsmakemehappyx/22944564

http://dailybooth.com/catsmakemehappyx/23447005

The last ones an awkward picture, I know but be honest. Because I want bangs like this girl on tumblr.

Heres her link:

http://h-rd.tumblr.com/

She's pretty & has amazingg hair.

SO WOULD I LOOK GOOD WITH SIDE SWEPT BANGS OR NOT?

Thank youuuu.

Alrighty, well I wrote a question yesterday about something that had happened with my dad & I. He screamed at me & told me to get out of the room before he hit me. If youu wanna read it just click on my name & read the second one in my questions list. So anyways I just wrote him an 8 page note about how i feel. It talks about my struggle with depression, which he still has no clue about, my thoughts of suicide, doesn't know about that either, & also me thinking about cutting, no he doesn't know about that. It also talks abouut him expecting me to be perfect & all that kinda stuff. What I'm saying is in scared to give it to him. I mean, I want him to know how I feel & I want him to know what I've been going through but I'm just embarrassed I guess. I'm embarrassed about my thoughts of suicide & cutting for some reason. So how do I give the note to him? Just hand it to him & walk away, or not give it to him at all? I don't know... I just want him to know howi feel. What should I do???

This is probably the stupidest story but it's true. My dad just bought me a new bed today & he asked me to clean my room so he could set it up. Well I started to then the power went out so he tried to fix it. About an hour later he fixed it && then he told me to finish cleaning my room. I was on the computer editing a video, because I love doing that, & I started to walk upstairs to clean my room. I really didn't feel like cleaning my room & I was mad that he told me to so I was whispering some stuff about him & hrs overheard me. Then he came into my room & yelled at me. He literally screamed at the top of his lungs. He told me I was grounded off the computer for a month && then he told me to get out before he hit me. Then he called me an ungrateful *****. I'm only 13 & he made me cry because my dad never swears at all. I'm so confused & I just wanna kill myself or something. I don't know why he got so mad at me for just saying stuff about him. I apologized but he won't take it. What should I do?

I posted this awhile ago but I didn't get many answers. I'm still crying. ._.

This is probably the stupidest story but it's true. My dad just bought me a new bed today & he asked me to clean my room so he could set it up. Well I started to then the power went out so he tried to fix it. About an hour later he fixed it && then he told me to finish cleaning my room. I was on the computer editing a video, because I love doing that, & I started to walk upstairs to clean my room. I really didn't feel like cleaning my room & I was mad that he told me to so I was whispering some stuff about him & hrs overheard me. Then he came into my room & yelled at me. He literally screamed at the top of his lungs. He told me I was grounded off the computer for a month && then he told me to get out before he hit me. Then he called me an ungrateful *****. I'm only 13 & he made me cry because my dad never swears at all. I'm so confused & I just wanna kill myself or something. I don't know why he got so mad at me for just saying stuff about him. I apologized but he won't take it. What should I do?

ok. On my YouTube channel it says I have 393 subscribers. But an hour ago it said I had 417. I'm really confused because I don't think it's possible to lose that many subscribers in an hour. Is something wrong with YouTube or what? IM CONFUSED.

since last year my parents have been on my back about everything. Especially math. I suck at math. I'm good at everything else, just not math. I try, & try, & try but I still can't get it. Anyways, I have a B+ right now. So my parents tell at me EVERY SINGLE NIGHT after I get home from school. I'm not even kidding. I'd be happy if I got an hour without them yelling at me. They think I need to be perfect && get all A's. Sorry that I'm not fricken perfect. Sorry I'm not good at sports like you were mom. Sorry I'm not good at playing my trumpet. Sorry I'm not good enough for you guys.

I just wish I could say that to them. I really do. But I'm afraid for some reason. My question is, how do I tell them what I'm going through. I feel like cutting every night because they make me feel so stupid. && then they pretty much say my hobby, editing videos & putting them on YouTube, is stupid. They always say it wasting my time. That's what I wanna do when I get older, be a film editor. But I don't have enough confidence because my parents tear me down && make me feel like nothing.

I just had to get this out & I feel a little better. bye.

I recently made a tumblr & I have only 15 followers. Yeah, pathetic I know. I was just wondering if youu could follow me & if youu post your link below I'll check out your blog & I'll follow you.

Thank youu so much. Here's some more links if you have any of these too:

http://gotmeonmytoesx.tumblr.com/

http://dailybooth.com/livvWithaCamera/22894621 (pictures of me, should I get brown tips on my hair?)

http://www.youtube.com/user/XxLivvWXx?feature=mhee

Thank youu so much<3 if youu follow or subscribe youu get a hug from me. kbye.

Alright(: so my hair has been boring & blonde my whole life. I'm in 7th grade now, 13 years old, & I wanna die the tips of my hair brown. Here's what I look like if that helps at all:

http://dailybooth.com/livvWithaCamera/22894621

Anywho, I was just wondering if youu could post any pictures that might look good with my hair. & I was wondering what else I could do to my hair if that wouldn't look good.

Kwellthankyouu&bye<3 SERIOUSLY THANK YOUU:D:D:D

Alright(: so my hair has been boring & blonde my whole life. I'm in 7th grade now, 13 years old, & I wanna die the tips of my hair brown. Here's what I look like if that helps at all:

http://dailybooth.com/livvWithaCamera/22442714

Anywho, I was just wondering if youu could post any pictures that might look good with my hair. If you can't tell what my hair looks like in that picture, heres another one:

http://dailybooth.com/livvWithaCamera/22442911

Kwellthankyouu&bye<3 SERIOUSLY THANK YOUU:D:D:D

alrighty, so about 4 months ago my boyfriend broke up with me. We both went to different schools & mainly talked over texting. Anyways one day he just randomly broke up with me. It's been bothering me ever since. Here's the whole story:

I used to go to his school from kindergarten to 4th grade. Then in 5th grade I moved not too far away from my old school & I started going to a new school. (im in 7th grade now & im 13 jussayin.) Well my friend got his number & gave it to me. We texted a lot & then he told me he really liked me. We started dating (long distance I guess sense we hardly got to see each other) we dated for about 6 months & then like I said before, he just randomly broke up with me.

Well I forgot about him because I started to like another boy. About 3 days ago my school played a basketball game against my old school & my ex was there. I didn't go because I didn't even realized that he was playing. Anyways, these other girls from my school kept talking about how cute he was & how they got his number.

All of a sudden I'm getting jealous. I mean I started to like this other kid & now these girls are making me jealous. What can I do to just get him out of my head? I mean, sure I miss him & all because we both really liked each other but I'm ready to just forget about him.

Ok well sorry that I just wasted 3 minutes of your life. VENTING IS GOOD. well bye(:

I just got home from school & got on tumblr & i saw a buch of pictures about depression. I just ran up to my room & started crying. I didn't want my parents to see me crying because they would keep asking what's wrong.The truth is, I don't know. I used to be happy. I used to have more friends & I didn't have to pretend to be ok. Now, girls at school keep bringing up the fact that I don't play any sports, that I'm horrible at math, & that I have a few problems. I've lost my best friend. We just don't talk anymore & I wish she was here for me right now. My math grade is dropping lower & lower and it makes me feel stupid. I'm in the high math classes but I still don't understand anything. Whenever I get a test back one girl always asks me what grade I got because she knows she did better than me. & it makes me feel stupid. Another girl called me retarted. I don't know why. It's not like I'm a girl with no friends. I'm not popular but I'm in between. I just don't know what to do. I come home & cry everyday of my life because of what somebody said or because of a math grade. I've never cut before because I'm too scared to do it. But I have thoughts of suicide sometimes. I just think to myself, "God made youu for a reason. Youu might not know what it is yet, but you'll find out." I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to tell my parents because I don't want to drag them into this. & if I talk to a councler at school, kids will find out & keep trying to find out what's wrong with me. what do I do. I'm so sick of life. i know I'm gonna hit rock bottom soon.

Is anybody else having this problem? I just tried to log on this morning & it turned to a white screen. So i refreshed the page & the same thing happened. Then I tried that a few more times. Does anybody know what's wrong? THANK YOUU(: