J. Lee Kenser

Ok so for two years I have had to endure changing due to my Ex's work schedule due to things like "daycare issues" etc.

Now that I need a change she has refused to give up any Saturday evenings in order to allow when I am able to make it the 100 mile trip one way. All because she doesn't want to sacrifice her new social life. Not even for the sake of the kids.

She is posting that I am tormenting her on her myspace page. All I mentioned was that everytime she had one of those issues of which just in 2005 there were about 8 of them. When those changes were made they were all at the last minute and I had to adjust when I could come to fit into the rest of her schedule of events.

Now she needs to adapt for me and is not willing to do this for the kids. The only way she will agree to move a day ahead is if I will show up between 1pm to 5pm. That's right I only get 4 hours with my kids while she is present. I get a total of 8-12 hours a month depending on how the month is. And if I can afford to make the 200 mile round trip.

Keep in mind when I am working I have to pay up to 65% of my paycheck after taxes to child support and then if the company I am working for offers health/dental I am required by law to pay for that too. Which gets kind of expensive with three kids. I realize that I made mistakes to get me into part of this mess.

However, that being said I also have had health issues beyond my control which have caused issues with employment. This was an issue when she met and married me, although at that time I had been doing pretty good. But, as I started to have more issues and was filing for Disability that according to my Dr's I qualified for. With her agreeing to go along with it. Then she wanted to torture me because she couldn't stand her parents threatening to cut off the money they were subsidizing her with.

Again, I want her and the kids happy. But, does that always have to mean at the sacrifice of my time with the kids? Last Christmas for example I had xmas eve with the kids ( it was my scheduled visit I get no holidays) she made sure that the kids opened gifts with her family before my visit. They had no interest in opening the presents I struggle to buy for them. That was also after missing the visit before because she wanted to go to Chuck E. Cheese's and I didn't want to go with her family so she failed to show up. She was found in contempt for that visit and I was awarded another four (4) hours that can only be used on a non-holiday, non working day for her with 30 days written notice in advance.

I am growing tired and can truly begin to understand why a lot of fathers who can actually pick up their kids and leave give up. And I have to spend my four hours with her present. She even tries to tell me what the kids and I are going to be doing. She thinks that just because when no one else is around that her the kids sit and watch videos while she is on her laptop that I must be doing something really important with them.

She fails to realize that when I sit on the couch, I get to talk to them individually as usually one or the other will slide up on my leg or aside me and talk to me. I get to spend quality time in an individual manner with each personality. I begin to see all the things I miss because I chose to leave rather than stay so they could see us arguing all the time.

I was tired of fighting about everything her parents thought we ought to do. Now I applaud them though I really dislike them for getting in the way. Now that she thinks she needs to work full time, go to college full time and socialize on the weekends. My ex-inlaws are spending most of the time with my kids at their house.

Last November she sat in a room with me and a Kent County FOC Mediator and said " I always put the kids first, no matter what." My kids are 5 and 6. Three in all one girl 6 almost 7, and twin boys 5 almost 6. Yet she could barely wait before the boys started kindergarten to go to college.

While I realize now that she will never change still she should be a little more accommodating as I was for the sake of the kids. It isn't their fault she set this up the way she did and wants out of it now.

"Who is really surprised that Well Water Systems in many states are finding E. Coli in there systems more frequently?"

Based upon the amount of water usage considering that all water running through most of these systems are only having Iron Removal on them.

And that there is an obvious excessive use on these systems drawing down the Aqua fir with less water to dilute the run off from farms, etc.

Over and over again. That is why she has been trying to get me to stop visiting the kids. She thinks she is going to find that connection with another man. Despite referring to me last year in an interview for a church magazine as the love of her lifetime. She certainly was mine. Every time I have dated since all I can talk about is her. She made me so crazy, but to this day I can still feel her lying next to me in bed. I can still see her clearly in my head, the dreams of love they have not left my mind.

As our love starts to fade

it cuts real deep like a blade

My heart feels a little unpaid

our love a foundation never laid

If our love is underpaid

our loathe and anger self-made

Then surely we built our own blockade

in maturity our masquerade...

I drive about an additional 20 miles one way to get to the point where I pick up my newspapers. Then deliver my route which is approximately 60 miles. Then Drive 20 miles back home.

Where can I possibly find the natural flavorings that people use at home to flavor water? I think it is called essential oils.