Amber

pregnant for three of our four yearmarriage im pregnant my husband dosent beat me but he has hit me but i hit him back so i feel like ive hit him and hurt me sexually he puts me down and i doubt my own judgment i dont wanna be in sin by divorcingihate being confused by the headgames and its worse cause the boys all love him and adore him in their life but he isnt very kind to my daughter he uses then i make him sound awful but everytime ive left he’s promise to stop to do counseling w me read his bible be kinder to respect my no during sex i try to save but end up buying gas or kid clothes or shampoo or treating myself to a coffee ect my church was so important to me none of them would support a divorce i dont want to leave them my home break up my kidsi was almost in my own place but the stress and exhaustion on kids and i and hubbys insistence’s i went back to make it worse he’s illegally here from Mexico I petitioned for his greencard but itll be another year or many he says if i leave they will deport him and kids wont see him hes a good provider i am i asking for to much as a Christian do i need to let god handle it submit and stay for kids aChristian home and i feel so unequally yoked and hated know your only hearing one side of the story but i feel so stuck i dontvwamt him getting deported i dont want kids losin papa i dont wanna lose my stepsonthis pregnancy is hard and im so stressed church and God im just not sure anymore about anything