itsmesowhatofit

There was this girl I dated in 1994. I had seen her go through a very back breakup, but initially, I only wanted to be her friend. But, it became more than that. Over a short time, like a week, I fell for her. I knew she had just gotten hurt, but she had dated this one guy right after her bad breakup, so I thought I was in the clear of being a rebound. Boy was I wrong! So, I really fell for her, but then she started getting distant. Like on dates she never talked hardly, that sort of thing. Well, she dumped me, but unfortunately for me, I was head over heels by this time. She ignored me for the 4 years after, only talking to me whenever she had a new man or to throw it in my face. That hurt me so bad that I cried every time it happened. Well, after about 4 years of that I moved about 4 hours away, just to get away from her. Well, in 2005, I tired to look her up and posted a message on a reunion board. I got a reply telling me that she was married and to get on with my life and move on. I did so, sadly, but then it's 2009 and as I was looking something up on myspace, her site pops up. I never even knew she had a myspace. Well, now, she is married, has a son, etc. I can only be happy for her, right? Now all these new feelings have developed, although we haven't even talked in like 15 years and I cry now, when I hear certain songs and the like. So, am I totally bonkers? Have I lost my mind with this? I haven't contacted her and I wont, because she is married now, but am I wrong to still be in love with her after all this time? I just can't get her out of my mind. (Although typing this alleviates some pain)