Martell Coleman

I make $813 a month, and I'll say 200 of that is just my little bills(PSN,XboxLive,Music). Then my one solid phone bill. I want to make more money, but I also just applied  for a credit card. I'm trying to set myself up to only use my credit card, but the limit right now is 500. I heard you shouldn't use your credit card for everything. My original plan was to just use the credit card for everything, and only use my bank card when i need it cash or to pay the credit card. That way i save, and build credit. Also is it okay to transfer all of my my bills to credit card or keep them on my bank card ? At the end of the day I'm just trying to start building some type of a financial base. 

I want one for the reason that i get speed, and a good looking car. I wont feel like i have to buy a new car. The car i own now is Chevy Prizm 2002, and it drives well but needs work done to it. There's rust spots, needs a new muffler, the interior is falling apart, the windshield wiper is broke. The car drives nicely, but it reminds that i can purchase another one or use that money to fix it up. At that point i may not get no money out of it, but lost money into it. I feel like if i sell that car, buy a classic (which if i pour so money into the value can go up) i can still have the speed and good looks, but don't feel the need to want to purchase another car for a long time. I won't mind working on this car, honestly I'm trying to figure out how to make it a daily. Keep in mind i'm only 20 and still figuring it out. 

It's like being prejudged or passed judged they just assume you can't. I tell my friend a lot of things I'm going to do, and he always look at me and then goes "Can you really, if so how?", and then I'm ready to explain, but he doesn't wanna hear the plan so I question if I'm thinking to far ahead or is he thinking to little. On this not he's stuck in a weed cycle which don't get me wrong that's his choice, but I often know once I have the freedom I truly want I wont care for weed hell maybe even alcohol, and i asked if I were to disappear for 3 years to train (which I will) what would he do ?  I tried not sound like I would ditch him ( I would (ik terrible), but i've been wanting this). The point here is every time I mention crazy ideas of mine people always give me a second look like "no way in hell, your just going to do the same thing", but there the one's stuck in a cycle not even thinking or considering ahead besides the wants and temptations of today society maybe I'm thinking to far ahead. Although I refuse to believe so because the mindset is the first step of I can, and will do as I please 

White people dont like us because they assume we’re mixed therefore you get treated like your community. The community you love and feel for despise and looks down on you for not being a darker skin tone, and because the privilege with your skin. So now your left with no community and that usual racist or all round hatred for darker tones. Personally I don’t have active parents so that + being lightskin leaves me to believe I’m alone. 

I’ve been thinking lately that one of these days one of my grandparents won’t wake up and I’m truthfully going to be confused. I’m the baby so I watch them but once they leave Idk if I’ll have a idea of who I really am or what life changing moves I wanna make. There’s too much to think about. 

I look fit until you look at my stomach. I just been losing a lot of weight recently sense I’ve been drinking water but I noticed my stomach still hasn’t changed.

Truth is I don’t what to do. I have a stable job so most of that stuff I end up buying for myself. This happens every year, I also feel as if 19 and mostly likely 20 is going to be pointless.

I want a car badly but I don’t wanna get my permit and have nothing to drive. Personally I would like to take my driver license in a car I’m familiar with like my own. 

I have bad razor bumps on the back of my head and I’m too embarrassed to get fades. So I’m growing my afro out but it only goes so far before it stops. Tbh I don’t know what to do with my hair and as a African-American male trying not to look like every other ***** this **** is hard 😐

I’m having a serious identity, I’m too black for the white kids and to white for the black.

I keep having flash backs of my first love. We haven’t talked in months, I’m also In a relationship. Accept this relationship is a good one but I have the urge to just break it all of just for her.

It’s the middle of the night where I live and I use to love and I mean love to play the game but every game now is just copied or broken, I mean it’s like their just money hungry. I’m so hurt I can cry right now

Paying for it up front will leave me flat broke but I know I need a new phone because my 6s is currently broke with water damage and internal damage plus the battery is dying so fast now.

So this girl I had sex with, I came in her but this is after round 2 and Ik for shore I didn’t have much but it still happened. The second time it was a brand new day (the next day) and I came her but it was a full thing. Mind you this girl is on the pill. I’m scared honestly but she’s acting like it’s no big deal.