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I am a 37 yo female, and have always been kinda  targeted or a scapegoat by mean or rude people, and cannot figure out why. I thought as I got older, ppl would back off, but they actually have gotten worse, or maybe it's the same but I'm just noticing it more. 

anyways, ppl always say rude things about me for some reason even when I'm not doing anything to them, usually strangers or people who don't know me very well. for example, I ran into an old neighbor at my former complex at the grocery store, and he waved at me. i said "oh hi you live here now?" he said "not yet" and I said "nice to see you , he was w his wife and kids and a male friend who also lived at that complex. that male friend was never friendly w me, and i heard him say about me "weird motherf*ucker". 

I had never done anything rude or bad to this guy and always minded my own business but it seems no matter how humble or reserved I am ppl always find something they don't like. 

I'm not staring at other ppl, but for some reason they always think I am. I am a 37 y/o female and this has been happening to me since I'm 15 and am tired of it. for example, I was out of town over the weekend, and was exploring this small touristy town I'd never been to. There were these two women walking by, one maybe the mother or aunt both very attractive and well dressed, and i had to walk between them bc they didn't create space for anyone as they walked side by side. I heard the young girl about 15 or so say "everyone is staring at me" and the mom or whatever she was say 'yeah they are". i was not even staring! I was a tourist looking at the stores and they just happened to be in my line of vision. Then last night I went to the grocery store and this big overweight woman walking w her children walked by me. i moved my cart for them, and was literally looking at the salads not at them. and she said "don't be staring at me" to herself. 

I have large bright blue eyes . that ppl often comment upon. could this be why? but what am I supposed to do??

i was asking about a week ago if im too skinny. i am 37 yrs old, 5'2 and 94 lbs,. i wrote my daughter probably weighs more than me. my daughter is 12 and 5'2 also, and 96 or 97 lbs. someone said my child was obese and that it was child abuse, instead of just answering my question about my weight. it got me wondering if my child is overweight? do you think thats big? her dr has never said anything. 

I am 37 yrs old and recently weighed myself and now i only weigh 94 lbs. i am 5'2 so not that tlal but that still seems awfully thin to me. i have a 12 yo daughter and she probably weighs more than me by now. i was 101 for awhile but working a lot and stress made me lose weight. there's nothing clinically wrong w me. my thyroid etc are all normal. im just skinny. i hate it. i also find it scary i can lose weight so quickly. be honest is this really abnormal?

I am just really not happy anymore and I've lost my hope. I feel so disappointed at how my life turned out. This past year stupid 20/20 I lost everything in the same week. Due to the pandemic, I lost my job and then I gave in to move it back in with my child's father when I've been on my own for five years because I was about to be evicted. I had to rehome my dog my daughter lost her after-school program resource due to the school closures.  I'm not at all attracted to my child's father, I find him physically unattractive and also his personality is just awful. I miss my dog, my place, my Independence, and the life I had when I was not with him.  I admit this sounds silly and shallow, but my dream type physically is someone like Zac Efron... 

a couple yrs ago, I had gone on a date a lunch date w a guy I met from a dating site. I was 35 at the time, (37 now) and he was younger than me---26. anyways he preferred women older than him. he was EXTREMELY good looking and looked JUST like zac efron. we met off this kinky website called "adult friend finder'. anyways he seemed to like me at first, but he looked near my cleavage area and looked either disappointed or weirded out. i a bc up. anyways he then said "aren't you gonna eat" Im the type when Im shy or nervous or excited I cant eat. and he seemed almost concerned. then i mentioned later how i have a daughter casually and his whole demeanor changed. he said "you have a daughter?" like that. and later texted me about he "just wanted to have fun, not date women w children". but i wasn't even asking him to meet my daughter or anything like that, it's not unheard of for women my age to have children. 

he worked near me unfortunately so we often passed by each other on the street and it was very awkward we both didn't say a word. 

does it sound like a cop-out like he was using that as an excuse? or was this really a big dealbreaker for him? 

I know it was a couple yrs ago but was watching a movie w zac efron in it and it reminded me of him. 

my brother tested negative for covid19 a cuple mons ago after a coworker got hospitalised w a confirmed case. well just a few days ago he gets a letter from the health dept saying he survived covid and bc he is recovered he can donate plasma. my brother was very confused considering the test was negative. also my mom, me, my daughter, his gf and her 2 young kids have all been around hima lot and none of us even had a sneeze.

to me this proves theres a lot of fallacies w the testing and statistics, and also that asymptomatic ppl are not contagious.

thoughts? 

Ive been wanting to go to Arizona for a couple of yrs now and I now have finally the time and money. But then the pandemic happened. i know AZ is currently a hot spot, but so is where I live, California. Do you think it would be safe for my 12 yo daughter and I to go to az, on a plane, if we wear masks social distance from others on our trip? it would just be for a couple of days. 

would New Mexico be more safe or either one is bad or fine you think as long as we follow protocols?

I want to go to NYC. I would like to go there this summer. I am wondering if the statue of liberty, movies etc are open? 

i live in cali and everybody's really scared of the coronavirus even though it has less than a 1 percent deathrate. but things continue to be shut down, and vast majority of ppl I've talked to irl and on facebook etc believe things should be shut down and they're always sharing all the morbidities and patients w complications and comparing ti to HIV/AIDS. Which to me is not a fair comparison as HIV in the 80s before treatment became widely available was always a death sentence leading to AIDS, but covid does not always or even most times lead to death and complications. sometimes i think ppl want it to be deadly bc they don't want to go back to regular life and living and enjoy things being shutdown. thoughts?