What do you imagine your future self to be?

I always imagined myself as a good little person who everybody knew and liked but nobody loved. But then I realized this is the exact kind of person that would be left in a ditch to die. So, I decided to seek the perspectives of others to see how I can improve. Sad part is, in my social circles, in order to be popular you gotta be the one who has the drugs; you know, in like little zip lock baggies. I didn't realize that you didn't wanna be the guy who asked for drugs, no sir, everybody hates that guy, ******* despises that guy. Honest mistake on my part for sure, and I was humiliated and rejected by every girl I asked the subsequent day. Clearly, I was not popular, and to this day, still am not. But one day, maybe, just maybe, I'll bump into my friends ******* in the bathroom just across from that awkward turn in the hall that goes nowhere, and finally they'll look at me and see who I truly am. I'll get on my knees and they will understand everything I'm going through and maybe, just maybe, they'll let me watch.